Can I be super honest with y’all – even though this will probably make me look bad?
Over a year ago when I started this blog it was after I felt a push in my spirit that I needed to be sharing Jesus with the world more than my occasional Facebook post with scripture attached. It was designed to be my ministry, built around Proverbs 27:17
As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. – Proverbs 27:17 (NIV)
My heart was to bring people closer to God through the stories of my attempts to get closer to Him. I remember my sheer awe the first time a person I didn’t know liked one of my posts. Then the craziness that came after I got my first comments. I never imaged in my wildest dreams I would ever have gotten emails from readers, likes on the Facebook page, or followers on my Instagram.
After working on this site for months under the goal of sharing Jesus, somewhere along the line the focus shifted. I kept talking about Jesus but I changed the name to reflect me rather than scripture. I started self promoting on my personal social media pages, I dedicated hours of my life to rebuilding things so it would all be on brand – that brand being me.
I don’t think there is anything wrong in blogging the way I, and many others, do. I also don’t believe there is inherently a sinful nature to self promotion. If anything, people should be able to share with the world their creations and work however they want to.
The thing that I’ve been getting caught up on is the purpose behind the action.
The purpose behind writing was to share Jesus, but lately my actions have been more revolved around being noticed. I’ve spent more time deciding the optimal time to post a blog than I spent writing it. I’ve got apps to tell me who isn’t following me, apps to manage my social media, private Pinterest boards filled with tips on how to get more views.
Somewhere my purpose shifted. I’d be willing to bet at some point, your purpose has shifted too.
When Jesus died on that cross He made a sacrifice that we are compelled to share with the world. The disciples did it, thousands of preachers have done it, you and I should be doing it every day. Some have done it better than others – they’ve reached bigger crowds and converted more people. When I think about the best of the best, I can’t help but think of the disciple Paul.
Paul spoke to massive crowds, he was responsible for the conversion of entire cities and people groups. He was bigger than Judah Smith, Steven Furtick and Billy Graham combined. He was a powerful preacher and he knew how to captivate an audience.
Paul didn’t preach for page views.
At no point did Paul preach because it would make him famous. Paul preached to make Jesus famous.
I don’t know where you are in your walk with God, nor do I know how you chose to share your faith each day. What I do know, is the sheer joy God can fill your life with the moment you chose to dedicate your days to glorifying Him rather than glorifying yourself.
When it’s all said and done, it won’t matter how many views your blog got, or likes your page on Facebook had. God won’t care about your likes on Instagram or your retweets on Twitter. He’s going to care about the life you lived, and that you lived it with the intention of pointing all that you have back to His creation.
It’s been a hard lesson to learn, and it’s hurt to realize how easily I shifted the focus from God and onto myself. It happens slowly, a little each day, until one day you’ve gotten all turned around and you aren’t sure how you got here in the first place.
The best news is that it is so easy to get straitened out – you just have to ask Jesus for help. You have to ask for help, actively want to do better, and take the time to evaluate your actions for its underlying purpose. As long as your goal is to share Jesus, you’re on the right track.
What areas in your life have you gotten caught up in? What could you make more about God and less about yourself? How can I pray for you in this?
I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments below – Don’t forget to share this post with someone you think needs to hear this message too.